So it's June 16, if you can't tell by the timestamp, and that means I will be coming home in thirteen days. I haven't made a legitimate entry in a while and I'm fucking bored as hell so I figure why not. I didn't write too much on here because I wanted to discuss everything in person, but that really didn't make that much of a difference since I told a lot of people stories anyway. But I wrote all the good moments down that I will share with everyone when I come home. I also got all the gifts for everyone today, don't get too excited it is nothing special at all and I bet you can guess what it is anyway. I didn't realize how poor I would be or the lack of space I would have when I told you all I would get all individual gifts. Such is life.
They just gave us hot chocolate and I got to the bottom and got all the syrup it was delicous. Anyway all in all I really think this trip has taught me a lot. I don't think I've changed all that much. If anything my language has definitely become more vulgar and teasing has gotten to its max but that's really only adding to characteristics I already possess. I did not come here as the same person I am back home. I noticed this the other day. The hyperness has completely calmed itself down, however I am still weird as fuck. I think I matured as well. But in the responsabilty way, not personality way. I really don't think I am going to change that much in my adult life. With the whole doctor situation I realized I could really fend for myself. I just need a job and a home...and a dog.
It was so strange leaving everything I am familiar and comfortable with back home. I kept thinking how the people in California were able to do it. But then as time went on it got easier and easier. Not easier as in I don't give a shit, but easier as I guess just getting used to it. Not a day went past that I hadn't thought of every single person that I was really close with. The most upsetting moments were those where something happens that you know another person would freak out at a situation as well. Those are the ones that get me. I am getting more excited as it gets closer to coming home. But not about the plane ride at all. Twenty-two hours bleh. Thank you Benydril.
I'm not going to miss Australia as much as I thought I would. Yeah it's been cool to legally be able to drink and all but I mean I think that's what I'll miss most. And in about a year and a half I'll be able to anyway. Haha just think Australians are legally allowed to drink three years before Americans. Such bullshit. I think this system works a whole lot better than 21. I will mostly be missing my friends for sure. For the past few weeks everytime I get drunk I've been whining how much I am going to miss them, they're probably annoyed by now haha. It's just hard to leave these things behind. People you've seen everyday for four months straight and then having that disappear is a really big change. It's just these contradicting feelings are making me feel all weird. What can you do though?
I have a Philosophy final next week that I tried studying for and it just did not work out at all. So I have officially surrendered. I'm still going to take the exam but I'm not going to even bother studying. It's just too difficult and I really couldn't give a shit about this course. Worse comes to worse I fail and I take the leadership class and scuba diving and I'm back on track. Plus I'm still thinking of staying next summer to take those business classes so I'll be way over credits. Everyone's been out of school for over a month now and I'm still doing work. Well ha, not at all.
I guess that's all for now. I feel like I've just become comfortable with this place. I'm familiar with the surroundings and know where to get most things. When looking back I feel like I have been here for ages. But in the present, it feels like I just got here. I remember the night before I left having all my friends over my house and our goodbyes, embedding the images of their faces and sounds of their voices in my head since I would not physically see them in four months. I remember the feeling when I woke up the day I was leaving, the nervous/excited feeling not knowing what to expect. I remember the drive to the airport, eating dinner with mine and Chris's family, leaving my family at the gate embedding their faces and voices as well, then emptying my carry on and taking off my shoes at security. Sitting nervously at the gate as I spent 6 hours thousands of miles in the sky. Then another fourteen to Sydney. The loopy feeling of being drugged with two Benydrils and a glass of champagne as I fought to stay awake for the second take off. The last ten minutes of the flight, landing in Sydney, the humidity, the confusion not knowing where to go. I remember the entire first day of coming here. The people that I met. How fucking awkward the entire first week was. And now, after four months I am going to have to endure this all over again. I'll never forget these past four months. It's been a great four months too. I know I'm going to have some bad days when I get home just like I had bad days here dealing with the memories of back home. But it was all definitely worth it.
The most enjoyable experiences: going to the zoo, petting the kangaroo/wallaby, numerous concerts, friends, and exploring the city.
This will probably be the final entry. All good things must come to an end. Peace out, yo. I'll see you in not too long at all.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
So...
Today is my worst day ever. Eight hours of classes. So I have class from 6-9 pm off campus. I take the shuttle walk into class and at about 6:15 my teacher walks in and says log off right now. She then tells us we are going to critique other people's projects and we have 2 mandatory rules. One we must have an alcoholic beverage (which is free) and two we must find 3 works that we enjoy. So I have one beer, two beers, 3 beers, one glass of wine, 2 glasses of wine. Before I know it I am drunk, in class. And yes, my teacher is more drunk than I am. Everyone word out of her mouth was fuck, bitch, cunt, whore.... and it continues on. She then wants to take a picture of us on her phone which she is too drunk to do and continues to curse at her phone as she stumbles into a pole. Which she then attempts to pole dance on a pole.
Then she asks us what time it is. It's about 8 and this Asian kid goes it's 9 when our teacher knows it isn't. She then goes "Why don't you go on a plane back to fucking Asia." Everyone is like what the fuck and of course I am cracking up. He then leaves and my teacher goes "Where did Matt go? I don't know why he got so offended. I need to talk to him."
We then go back to class to watch a movie after a lot of fucks and bitches and cunts and whores are mentioned. She tells us the movie is a half hour long. It says there's 57 minutes left. I raise my hand and ask how long the movie is she says a half hour. It's 8:40, we won't finish a movie that's an hour long in 20 minutes. So I say no, it says 57 minutes. She stops the video and goes, "You know what, get out of the classroom." And I say "Wait me?" And she goes, "Yes."
So I start packing up and she goes "You don't like me and you don't like my class." And I say I do, because I actually do. And she goes "Nope, get out of class." So I got kicked out of class by my teacher. And I must say it was the best class I have ever had.
Then I went to McDonalds and got a Big Mac meal and of course I was still hungry. So I order one cheeseburger and the guy gave me 3 Quarter Pounders. Delicious.
Then she asks us what time it is. It's about 8 and this Asian kid goes it's 9 when our teacher knows it isn't. She then goes "Why don't you go on a plane back to fucking Asia." Everyone is like what the fuck and of course I am cracking up. He then leaves and my teacher goes "Where did Matt go? I don't know why he got so offended. I need to talk to him."
We then go back to class to watch a movie after a lot of fucks and bitches and cunts and whores are mentioned. She tells us the movie is a half hour long. It says there's 57 minutes left. I raise my hand and ask how long the movie is she says a half hour. It's 8:40, we won't finish a movie that's an hour long in 20 minutes. So I say no, it says 57 minutes. She stops the video and goes, "You know what, get out of the classroom." And I say "Wait me?" And she goes, "Yes."
So I start packing up and she goes "You don't like me and you don't like my class." And I say I do, because I actually do. And she goes "Nope, get out of class." So I got kicked out of class by my teacher. And I must say it was the best class I have ever had.
Then I went to McDonalds and got a Big Mac meal and of course I was still hungry. So I order one cheeseburger and the guy gave me 3 Quarter Pounders. Delicious.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
i miss karen
I'm writing this for Michelle Fried and Liz Forino since they both mentioned me not writing here the same day. So I guess I will, I just wanted stories for when I got back, except I really don't have any hahaha. I don't even know what to write.
Well school's coming to a close as it is already closed back home. I really cannot believe my adventure here is more than halfway over. In about two and a half weeks it will be one month. And I have to say I'm getting a little upset. But more about that later. Classes are going pretty well, besides Philosophy of course. My mom asked me if I was going to pass and I told her I honestly didn't know. Which I'm glad so it won't be such a surprise when I get my grades. I am halfway done with my 40% of the final grade 3,000 word major project and I am very much relieved. I think I can finish it in the next 2 or 3 days. Classes have become such a hassle and I have never been this "bad" of a student before. I cannot miss not one more class cause I am at the limit. But it's okay, 4 more weeks, I think I can do it.
On a positive note, Chris and I drunkenly went swimming at midnight in the ocean after our formal dinner. Not too smart but hey, most adventurous thing yet. We're planning to go to either the Gold Coast or Melbourne for our study break which I think will be a lot of fun. We haven't gone outside of Sydney yet besides New Zealand. Let's see. Chris, Forry, and I have been watching a shit ton of movies, pretty much every night unless we've been out drinking. Although the other day after playing beer pong we watched a movie and I left 3 or more times to use the bathroom. Let it be known that I still constantly piss and still constantly eat. And the dino food is getting worse by the day! My worst nightmare. Birch, you will never look this good again.
Oh a funny story. Except not really. The buses here have steps in the back because for some reason the seats are leveled up. And I tried to be cool and do this trick getting off the bus by holding onto the bars on top and jumping. I didn't wait for the bus to stop though and the second I jumped in the air the bus stopped short. I didn't fall but I tripped and looked like a retard.
But yeah that is pretty much all it. I'll update more later I guess.
Well school's coming to a close as it is already closed back home. I really cannot believe my adventure here is more than halfway over. In about two and a half weeks it will be one month. And I have to say I'm getting a little upset. But more about that later. Classes are going pretty well, besides Philosophy of course. My mom asked me if I was going to pass and I told her I honestly didn't know. Which I'm glad so it won't be such a surprise when I get my grades. I am halfway done with my 40% of the final grade 3,000 word major project and I am very much relieved. I think I can finish it in the next 2 or 3 days. Classes have become such a hassle and I have never been this "bad" of a student before. I cannot miss not one more class cause I am at the limit. But it's okay, 4 more weeks, I think I can do it.
On a positive note, Chris and I drunkenly went swimming at midnight in the ocean after our formal dinner. Not too smart but hey, most adventurous thing yet. We're planning to go to either the Gold Coast or Melbourne for our study break which I think will be a lot of fun. We haven't gone outside of Sydney yet besides New Zealand. Let's see. Chris, Forry, and I have been watching a shit ton of movies, pretty much every night unless we've been out drinking. Although the other day after playing beer pong we watched a movie and I left 3 or more times to use the bathroom. Let it be known that I still constantly piss and still constantly eat. And the dino food is getting worse by the day! My worst nightmare. Birch, you will never look this good again.
Oh a funny story. Except not really. The buses here have steps in the back because for some reason the seats are leveled up. And I tried to be cool and do this trick getting off the bus by holding onto the bars on top and jumping. I didn't wait for the bus to stop though and the second I jumped in the air the bus stopped short. I didn't fall but I tripped and looked like a retard.
But yeah that is pretty much all it. I'll update more later I guess.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
antique bull
I'm gonna be gay and write this down now. First of all, since I've gotten here I felt like I've been a completely different person. Not so much different, just specific parts of me more noticeable than back at home. For example, my hyperness and goofyness has just not been showing itself. Which is really strange for me. I've been having really serious conversations with my close friends here. And as much as that is the opposite of how I really am, I think it shows how comfortable I am around them to be discussing these things. I know my real character will come around soon, and I just think that it is because I am not feeling too well and just not in that mood.
Since I was so depressed about missing my friends I discovered this through lots of thinking and talking. And it's just this snowball effect that I am never going to be able to escape now. I go to high school and develop this bond with a bunch of my friends that I don't think a lot of people are able to experience. As I move on to Ramapo, I got so upset that I wasn't seeing my friends everyday. It took almost months to finally adjust to this. Now as I am in Australia I miss two parties of my friends. As they have both gotten close as well, it makes it hard because four months, although it isn't ridiculously long, is still a long time to be away from people who you've been seeing almost everyday, both friends and family. You just don't know what you're missing until you don't have it. I think I just took every relationship I had for granted. And I know consciously this was not the case, I feel like it's subconscious for everyone. When you have something for so long you just don't realize until it is missing. Abscence makes the heart grow fonder is definitely one of the truest saying I have heard.
Now as my friends become my mates, and my aquantances become my friends, I realize how this is going to happen again. And I know it's going to be so hard on me when I go back. I walk through this school of 40,000 students and have yet to have one walk to class where I haven't seen someone I know. I hate change. It's so hard to adjust and there's nothing you can do but wait it out. Depending on your mood, the memories will make you happy, other times it will upset you. There's no predicting it. There is not one day that passes that I do not think of every one of my friends and family members back home. I wonder what they're doing, how they're doing. And then when I'm home, happy to be reunited with my family members, I know that I am going to miss everyone here. When I was at school I always brought up my home friends to them, when I was home I always brought up my school friends to them, and now when I'm here I bring up everyone from home to them. It hasn't even been a month and I am thinking of this now. But why shouldn't I? Maybe preparation is the key.
Life has just become a big mystery to me lately. Unfortunately, this is life and we must deal with it. You live to love and it just breaks your heart. I think I know my problem. I force myself not to feel the change. And I hold myself for as long as I can in that place where I feel comfort. But, it backfires because I can't feel that comfort and the feelings just get worse and worse. I don't want to let go, but it's inevitable. It may take days, weeks, or months to overcome this as much as you can. It will never be the same though. Even when reuniting your relationships are different even the slightest. New relationships form with those you love. I mean they will, you are away for so long. The separation creates this gap in your relationship that may or may not be filled up again. So no matter where you go, the lives you live, the bonds you create, you will at one point have to realize this will change. So maybe thinking ahead will be best. No matter what the pain and heartache will be there, but maybe it will be alleviated a little bit. And this doesn't mean to keep your distance and not let these relationships grow, but just prepare.
And I have to say almost 4 times bigger than Ramapo and there is still the problem of nothing to do at times. And you see the same people all the time. And you know what...I like it.
Since I was so depressed about missing my friends I discovered this through lots of thinking and talking. And it's just this snowball effect that I am never going to be able to escape now. I go to high school and develop this bond with a bunch of my friends that I don't think a lot of people are able to experience. As I move on to Ramapo, I got so upset that I wasn't seeing my friends everyday. It took almost months to finally adjust to this. Now as I am in Australia I miss two parties of my friends. As they have both gotten close as well, it makes it hard because four months, although it isn't ridiculously long, is still a long time to be away from people who you've been seeing almost everyday, both friends and family. You just don't know what you're missing until you don't have it. I think I just took every relationship I had for granted. And I know consciously this was not the case, I feel like it's subconscious for everyone. When you have something for so long you just don't realize until it is missing. Abscence makes the heart grow fonder is definitely one of the truest saying I have heard.
Now as my friends become my mates, and my aquantances become my friends, I realize how this is going to happen again. And I know it's going to be so hard on me when I go back. I walk through this school of 40,000 students and have yet to have one walk to class where I haven't seen someone I know. I hate change. It's so hard to adjust and there's nothing you can do but wait it out. Depending on your mood, the memories will make you happy, other times it will upset you. There's no predicting it. There is not one day that passes that I do not think of every one of my friends and family members back home. I wonder what they're doing, how they're doing. And then when I'm home, happy to be reunited with my family members, I know that I am going to miss everyone here. When I was at school I always brought up my home friends to them, when I was home I always brought up my school friends to them, and now when I'm here I bring up everyone from home to them. It hasn't even been a month and I am thinking of this now. But why shouldn't I? Maybe preparation is the key.
Life has just become a big mystery to me lately. Unfortunately, this is life and we must deal with it. You live to love and it just breaks your heart. I think I know my problem. I force myself not to feel the change. And I hold myself for as long as I can in that place where I feel comfort. But, it backfires because I can't feel that comfort and the feelings just get worse and worse. I don't want to let go, but it's inevitable. It may take days, weeks, or months to overcome this as much as you can. It will never be the same though. Even when reuniting your relationships are different even the slightest. New relationships form with those you love. I mean they will, you are away for so long. The separation creates this gap in your relationship that may or may not be filled up again. So no matter where you go, the lives you live, the bonds you create, you will at one point have to realize this will change. So maybe thinking ahead will be best. No matter what the pain and heartache will be there, but maybe it will be alleviated a little bit. And this doesn't mean to keep your distance and not let these relationships grow, but just prepare.
And I have to say almost 4 times bigger than Ramapo and there is still the problem of nothing to do at times. And you see the same people all the time. And you know what...I like it.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Blue Mountains
Today was a very exhausting, and exciting day. Chris, Chris, Leigh, and I took a trip to the Blue Mountains. We woke up at 7:30 to go. We then ended up missing the bus and the train and waited an hour before we left for our two hour journey. Then, we entered the town of Katoomba which was the scariest place I had been too. The people in the streets were like retarded and creepy. It reminded me of those movies where college kids go to the south and everyone is just weird and creepy. There was this woman that kept staring over at me.
Anyway we took another bus to the Blue Mountains and it was ridiculous. The view was beautiful. I didn't bring my camera cause I really didn't know what to expect and I thought we were just going to go hiking, or bushwalking as they call it here. I have some pictures from my iPhone that is on Facebook. I really can't describe in words how it looked but it was nothing like I've seen before. Not worth the 4 hour train ride there and back, but it was still great.
Anyway we took another bus to the Blue Mountains and it was ridiculous. The view was beautiful. I didn't bring my camera cause I really didn't know what to expect and I thought we were just going to go hiking, or bushwalking as they call it here. I have some pictures from my iPhone that is on Facebook. I really can't describe in words how it looked but it was nothing like I've seen before. Not worth the 4 hour train ride there and back, but it was still great.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Mackas
I'm bored and am actually focused to write something in here. I have some fun facts about Australia:
-The dollar and 2 dollar are coins and not bills. Which gets quite annoying.
-Australians call McDonalds, Mackas, and I've been eating a lot of it.
-Burger King is called Hungry Jack's here. And that is not the nickname it is the actual name. It's the same logo, it just says Hungry Jack's. It even has the Whopper. Informed by an Australian citizen, the reason for this is because no one was going to it when it was called Burger King.
-There are cockroaches everywhere and they are the ugliest most disgusting things.
-Australians call Americans Sepos, as in septic tank, because they are full of shit.
-Topless sunbathing is allowed on the beach.
Alright I am done with those for now. Classes start on Monday so these next few days are my last free ones. I'm excited to start though I hope I enjoy them I'm taking some interesting sounding ones. But other than that nothing new.
-The dollar and 2 dollar are coins and not bills. Which gets quite annoying.
-Australians call McDonalds, Mackas, and I've been eating a lot of it.
-Burger King is called Hungry Jack's here. And that is not the nickname it is the actual name. It's the same logo, it just says Hungry Jack's. It even has the Whopper. Informed by an Australian citizen, the reason for this is because no one was going to it when it was called Burger King.
-There are cockroaches everywhere and they are the ugliest most disgusting things.
-Australians call Americans Sepos, as in septic tank, because they are full of shit.
-Topless sunbathing is allowed on the beach.
Alright I am done with those for now. Classes start on Monday so these next few days are my last free ones. I'm excited to start though I hope I enjoy them I'm taking some interesting sounding ones. But other than that nothing new.
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